Not the usual day today ! There was so much going on everywhere I looked . My eyes were met with a feast of typical Blackpool promenade Culture . Drunks . Tourists . Homeless . Drug Addicts . Hen and Stag partys . Screaming gangs of Hooligans wanting to fight and cause misery for their own satisfaction . But what really caught my eye and filled my mind with agitation was not the fact that two male homeless men , who had slept in a nightclub doorway were getting ready for another day on the road . Not that they were smoking crack in broad daylight . Not that they were pushing a pram around with all there belongings in whilst drinking last nights left over cider ( Urine ? ) . Or that they were selling rag mags or some other form of stolen magazine for 2 pound a piece to buy more drugs and alcohol , as these are all common place in Blackpool . But  i couldn’t understand why there was a young girl poking her head out from inside the pram storage tray canopy under the main seat  , behind the jack russel dog , where the orange bag of clothes was given priority .


Homelessness is very sad , but a homeless child is even worse .

The Heart Of A Lion ,


These are two images from a recent project of mine , which will soon be finished and put on my website . I focused on the different types of people living on a council estate , which is soon to be demolished , and all the residents being rehomed . My work shows an underlying cultural message from a group of normal working class people living together , enduring and surviving amongst the dystopia , living alongside it and all that this entails . A proud and patriotic working class sub culture leaving their old estate behind with a strong desire to have a better future , which is something we all want and should take heed of .

It tells a story of ordinary people striving to live alongside social problems and how society has installed rules and ideas to influence and affect these unaware populations , showing themselves clearly amongst these people . It shows ideas instilled by a culture and people acting out and living their lives accordingly through these concepts . They have been moulded by societies notions which have been placed upon them ( forced ? ) , unknowingly but willingly accepted , innocently but obligingly to a predetermined script . This script needs to be re-written .

Lion Rug 2

The Accomplished Incubus

These are two recent images ( of many ) from a project i am doing , which I will soon be finishing and putting the end result on my website . I focused on the different types of people living on a council estate . The one above is a typical kitchen on the 17 th floor of a council buildings where a suicide took place . The area is renowned for suicides and has the highest rate in england .

More tradgedy and emotion was at one time flowing around this uncomplicated kitchen area than most people in your average family will ever witness in their entire lives . The pure charged Despair and sorrow that once was a reality in this ether … space ….atmosphere of this simple kitchen belies …. is misrepresented by such an commonplace household image and does not give justice to what actually happened here with the numerous suicides on Queenstown . But this for me sums up a stark contrast of the concept of what we don’t see or realise is going on in different places we just do not understand or experience . The idea of the sheer madness of what once existed and was real but is now a just a rested memory abandoned to history .

A forgotten mistake that cannot be learned from  …… But photography can solve these problems for future generations . My images carry on this thought so others can witness it and maybe help prevent these problems in the future

In the area they live there are consistently found higher levels of emotional strain, stress, depression, mental illness . It has been and is an important part of our culture to document , making a visual factual testament to the people who lived within them and how thy responded and evolved within it and the problems that arise .

My work shows a group of normal working class people living together , enduring and surviving together amongst the dystopia , living alongside it and all that this entails . A proud and patriotic working class sub culture leaving Queenstown behind but striving towards a better future , which is something we all want and should take heed of .

My work shows ordinary people striving to live alongside social problems and how society has installed rules and ideas to influence and affect these unaware populations , showing themselves clearly amongst these people . It shows ideas instilled by a culture and people acting out and living their lives accordingly through these concepts . They have been moulded by society notions that have been placed upon them ( forced ? ) unknowingly but willingly accepted , innocently but obligingly to a predetermined script . This script needs to be re-written for all our sakes .


The Instant Print ( Polaroids )


I have purchased a polaroid like camera . The fuji instamax neo 90 mini .

I was interested in exploring the materiality of the polaroid as a photographic object . An instant memory , a representation of reality as an instant physical photographic object . A photograph as an image of time and space . A framed icon of the past made into a physical memory before our eyes . How is this perceived in our minds ?

This instant image has a function to the viewer and to the person who took it , according to photographys rules . With old photographic processes the image takes time and skill to produce . Each different process implys its own materiality and notions .

There are still artistic skills used and needed in the taking of a polaroid especially now with the new fuji neo 90 , but all the developing process is cut short and done for us . I still sense the nostalgic “ satisfying – like “ feelings of excitement when I hold the polaroid . It is like I am developing it myself at the touch of a button , because it is what it is and has a great material form which comes out of the camera instantly as you press the shutter it seems more valid and artistic to the “touch” . You can take part in holding the memory straight away , being a more materialistic part of it .

I feel like I want to carry them on my person . It is to me a finished object although I feel like I want to play with and create something else from these objects . Why do I feel as I want to wrap the polaroid up in a valuable substance or material . I want to procure them in a safe place or hide them in secret location as I would treasure .

I cannot and will not change it anymore . Its materiality is different to say digital which I could work on after the image has been taken ( in photoshop ) . With a polaroid it is instant , but final and in more different ways it is satisfying in its own right . With other formats of film there is an exposure to light and then a time interval until it is developed in the dark room . A polaroid has an exposure to light but is instantly developed with no time gap between the exposure and the developing ( Could that time gap make any difference to the image in any slight way ) ?

Maybe a polaroid is more truthful in its representation of reality . I think I would trust a polaroid more that a digital , would you … ? I also enjoy the polaroids frame its thick chunky bottom and thin white borders are part of its history and are bondingly nice to the touch . It has a sensation of gel like thickness that I find appealing . When I was a child I had strong urges to deface the polaroid and look inside at what it held . This feeling of more inside the image attracts me to it even further after a while of using it .

My curiosity to look inside obejcts and find out how they work when I was young deeply extended to the polaroid . I used to enjoy destroying it . I felt like it had a working inside mechanism which I wanted to discover . I wanted to collect them and keep them safe as valuable objects , which I find I am doing again but with a greater hunger – like satisfaction because I have aged and gained more understanding of the photographs nature .

I think a polaroid brings your subconscious yearning into a reality quicker and more so than most other photographic forms and it is especially important because it does this , and even more so nowadays as the artistic process involved in creating the memory is a lot more than your latter day polaroid cameras . I think there is a welcomed place in the future for a more skillfully involved instant print camera .

The longevity and permanence of the instant print beats digitals 20 years and has many other plus factors . I think people mis place and mis prioritise the usefulness and importance of the instant print .

I have also noticed and find it very strange that the instant print camera is taken less offensively than my Nikon . People seem to approach it with an unthreatened giggle and allow me to take their image more so than if I approached them with my dslr . They are then very happy when I sometimes offer them a printed relic of themselves to keep . I have even been returned in kind with favours and money . It proves to me that historys concepts make and deliver societys reactions to them .

I felt that all of the instant prints qualitys would go well with my wetplate idea of applying permanence to the objects of Queenstown but give it a totally different valuable and materialistic quality .

Gary Winogrand ( Deconstruction . Interpretation )

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Well firstly when looking at this image it is obvious it has something to do with matters of racial injustices and high tensions regarding this that were at a peak in the 60’s with martin luther king bringing light on all these matters and a civil war esueing because of them .

I see a white woman stood next to a black man holding two young chimpanzee babys . My initial deconstruction at first glance is that if I put myself in a someones shoes that this may have sparked a reaction , and try to visualise what they might see and think . So this image was in a time when there was a lot of racial bigotry and mis-understanding of racsism and all the hatred that it brings . You have to remember that even high profile people were setting this standard for their own reasons of holding their own little corner of power intact in the social pyramid structure that they most fortunately found themselves in . This would be taken away from them ( social status , power , money , riches ) if people started to think in the right way , thus breaking the rung of the ladder that that sturdily held them up high . As is apparent in all forms of society today . people in power do not want to lose what they have for their own sake and also their offsprings future So whatever is keeping them there can seem delusionally right to them , whether it is … or not . So we have all sorts of injustices happening all over the world today e.g wars famine . un – even distribution of wealth etc .

A lack of education , or the wrong education being taught and understood would make a rascist . The information needed to become one doesn’t just spring out of the blue . Although there are studies that show babys of different races tend to congregate together in their own racial groups and ignore or hinder the other racial baby factions progress . So …. Asian would congregate with Asian and blacks with blacks , whites with whites etc whilst playing , even at a young age of 1 or 2 years old .

We have these people who don’t think they are doing wrong ( whose fault is all this ) but doing right and see this image as a threat because it shows a white women with a black man and what would be deemed as a mixed abominational offspring ( the chimpanzees regarded as children ) between their white women and the black man . So this was a racially motivated fear of extinction and insecurity about their futures . We have still have these worrys which are spread by propaganda today , regarding muslims and their birthrates overcoming other races such as white and black . But also we have lots of misinformation and untruths spread along with the truth as a tactic to avoid the truth being known ( which makes it even worse and harder to solve than what martin luther king had on his hands back then ) .

This image would have been very powerful in the 60’s and provoked these thoughts around a time they were already heightened as there were separate drinking fountains , separate restaurants, separate bathrooms, and churches for black people. Restaurants had a Jim Crow law, that stated,

“It shall be unlawful to conduct a restaurant or other place for the serving of food in the city, at which white and colored people are served in the same room, unless such white and colored persons are effectively separated by a solid partition extending from the floor upward to a distance of seven feet or higher, and unless a separate entrance from the street is provided for each compartment. ”

These were all terrible injustices and I cannot actually believed a normal intelligent human could let these go by unhindered ( My introduction answers this ) . it shows you that law isn’t always right but manmade to achieve the alphas goals .

So people were scared of there offsprings future being taken away by black people breeding with what they would see as “ their white women “ . and the higher the males social status the more delusional he would become of this fact , hence spreading more misconceived facts and mistaken ideas to influence people below him to achieve his ulterior motives and wrongly hatched end game concepts . The chimpanzee on the right looks like it is sitting above and on top of the white childs head which was probably seen as another form of mocking them .

Here I feel that we have an exact represention of racial social fears and cultural discriminations that were highly apparent in the 60’s . Gary wonogrand was very clever to play on this and this makes you realise what a great photographer he was .

Desire ( Photography to me )

Burns like a thousand suns


I saw and took this image whilst sat in my T4 on cleveleys promenade in Blackpool with my two young children whilst profoundly thinking about one of my deep passions ….. Photography . The sun was setting and it was very peaceful . I was parked up at the cove and taking polaroids of the kids . An overwhelming  sense of excitement came to me mixed with a love that i feel only for my family . This is the desire and satisfaction i experience each day when i am doing what i love ….. Photography . It is exciting and dangerous with the power to change the world and helps us to see themes and problems in society and realise strategies for coping with them that benefit our culture and evolve our species in a way that no other medium has before it or… ever will . I look intensely into its absolute pureness and spend time acutely contemplating its every detail wishing to achieve a new style or realise something original about its uniqueness that i am sure is there for us all to determine and discover .

I know there are many images yet to be viewed enjoyed and scrutinised that will re-write history as they have before . I know there are images that will change the world and make it a better place for future generations to live more peacefully . This is what spurs me on and I intend to seek out these images as great photographers before me also have . But ….. I want to find out its real beauty and the the secrets photography holds that haven’t yet been unveiled .

This stream of consciousness or train of thought that i had is what sparked the above image as i sat in thought and hushed silence . As the buddha once said ” Your best ideas come to you whilst thinking alone and in peace ” , i wholeheartedly agree with this and intend to spend more instances doing so .

The memory above and everything it holds comes flooding back to me overtime i glimpse this image . The time spent with my children . The sunset . The laughter . The actual feelings ( albeit in a more diluted form ) are felt once more with just a glance into this vortex of a thousand suns representing my desire to find something new . Each time i gaze upon the oranges , yellows and reds my vigour and intense devotion is re-ignited . This is the power of photography to me .

Photography is always on my mind and the desire to find a new way of expressing myself with , and to find something new about it . I feel that something very important is yet to be found . I feel that there is something amazing hidden within photography , in all its technicality and raw beauty . The way it prolongs memorys that could otherwise disappear . How it is a tool for control and media direction . Photography to me is one of the most important inventions that man has ever encountered .

That enclosed captured moment of light from surface is a magnificent , beautiful and emotionally stirring complex and significant exponent everytime the shutter is pressed ( The rush i feel with each pressing is enough to drive me on and this is just one aspect of the million joys of photography I experience ) . I am trying to describe how i feel when i am out working with the tool i love . Every time the shutter is pressed a new universe is born into a non existent reality , ( and helps this problematic reality assuredly grow into something better  ) , that makes it all worthwhile and helps me convey my past to the future on a physically materialistic flat 2d surface for others to realise .

Art and photography have a big future in my mind . I am striving and hope to bring something very new to the table with and for its betterment and all our profit .

Working Through Objects

Today Was an eventful day learning about susan hiller and the way she approached art with her anthropological , freudian , psychological and paranormal – esque way .

One of her pieces was on dream mapping . She asked some people to sleep in some fairy rings of mushrooms , to

One of her pieces involved Dream Mapping, in 1973 , it was an art event provocatively poised between an experiment (social or scientific) and a performance without an audience. Seven dreamers slept for three nights inside “fairy rings” in an English meadow marked by an abundance of circles formed naturally by Marasmius oreades mushrooms, a landscape feature that occurs in a number of British folk myths. The field became a site for dream experiences which were discussed and mapped the following morning. The dream maps of each participant were collected and copied onto transparent paper, sandwiched together, and traced to compile a composite group map for each night. A number of shared features were noted.

Another was , The sisters of Menon which involved automatic writing with blue pen on pieces of paper to express the subconscious thoughts . This is deemed as mythological and paranormal and was popular amongst surrealists in the dada movement . What is important is how we understand the marks and how we decode them .

In susan hiller book she says ” I take it that any conscious configuration of objects tells a story ” . I interpret what she says as meaning the artists interpretation of his piece of work is important and this is one of two storys involved in the work . The artists narration and what he thinks he is telling the audience and also the viewers interpretation as to how he sees the work . As in semiotics the work ( signs it consists of ) can be seen differently across cultures , sex , gender , social class and national identity etc .

Susan also says ” The only value these things ( objects ) have is that i have assigned some value to them ” . She is trying to say that cheap meaningless objects can suddenly become valuable and gain strong meaning from being placed somewhere as with her piece in the freudian museum . These cheap meaningless objects suddenly gain a very strong aura from there place of installation and thus gain value and relevant substance .

With freuds and his collections of artefacts in the freudian museum , each one was a representation of an important notion of the past that was relevant to himself . Memory is connected to the object and adds this profound sense of value and understanding . We add the interpretation to them ourselves from important life events or ideas and past experiences we hold dear and important to ourselves and thus make them more valuable and substantial in our minds .